"Something's always coming you can hear it in the ground
It swells into the air
With the rising
Rising sound
And never comes but shakes the boards and rattles all the doors
What are we waiting for
what are we waiting for..."
The Bravery, Believe

in spite of his drinking again last night and leaving me alone, again, at 7 p.m., i'm feeling pretty optimistic this morning.

it helps that the black-eyed pea's 'i got a feeling' is currently playing on the radio. that song, like the teddybears 'cobrastyle' just makes me want to get up and dance. and when i dance i feel happy...sort of like snoopy.

and it helps that this is the 2nd sunny day in a row.

of course the weather is supposed to be horrible tomorrow and friday. nasty even.

and even though it's only a 4 day week, that just means the weekend will be here sooner, which means i'll be trapped in the house, hoping he stays sober and worrying that he won't...and he'll want to do stuff with me, when i really just need for him to give me a little space.

back again, no real improvement - 2011-06-02
growing - 2010-05-08
does sharing really mean caring - 2010-04-20
don't want to think about it now - 2010-04-13
trying to figure it out - 2010-04-12