oh just fuck me...my asshole husband just came home, and he was driving drunk AGAIN! his court date is this thursday. not only that, but he plowed over a stop sign and part of the sign is embedded in the front of the car!

the police have cruised by our house twice already, so i'm sure it was called in and i'm sure whoever did got the tag!

hell, if i had witnessed it, i would have done the same thing!!!

our neighbor, who is a judge, recommended we put the car in the garage, so i did. i just called my bff, who is married to an attorney, to ask her to ask him if i am liable for the damage, as i own all the cars now.

i didn't specifically give him permission to drive it today, but he has had permission to drive it for work, since he totaled his car a month ago...so will i be screwed by implied permission?

now i'm sitting on pins and needles waiting to hear back from him!

shit!

annnd, i just learned that the stop sign he hit is at the entrance to our neighborhood. everyone is going to fucking hate us!

*mad face*

if we lived 200 years ago, they'd chase us out with pitchforks.

one thing i have noticed is that people who know nothing about alcoholism always blame the sober partner for 'not controlling' the alcoholic. i'm sure i will hear about how i shouldn't have allowed him to drive...as if i could stop him! well i've stopped his ass now, because i gave the keys to his older brother...who will NOT give them to him.

then again, his older brother will also be one of the first to ask why i couldn't control him, but whatever!

i am just so frustrated!

and i still haven't heard back, although she gave me his cell...i'm afraid that by parking the car in our garage it could be taken as me 'hiding' it.

i told HIM that another dui and we are done, because i can't live like this any longer. i can't believe he didn't get another dui today. is he fucking lucky or is it that i am fucking lucky? although i don't feel very lucky right now, i just feel emotionally beaten. which kind of goes with last night and his smack talk.

dear Lord, i honestly don't know what to do...all my instincts say 'run!!!!!'.

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