youngest child is sick with some kind of random bacterial infection. he's achy and has a low grade fever (making him achy, I suppose?). spent yesterday at the doctors and then at home, making him comfortable.

his father came home sober, but chose to finish off the bottle in his closet last night.

this morning he's had an upset stomach, i wonder why? he also opted to 'go in late' today for work...as though that's something new? he hasn't gone to work at 7:30 in over a year. even his wastrel of a brother has noticed.

i guess i'm just miss cranky pants today. after scarfing down an entire bag of peanut m&m's i am now refusing to weigh myself. i will go downstairs in a bit and work out, although i have no energy for that, but even i know that i can't find any energy sitting her on the couch or napping in my big chair.

even though that's what i want to do.

had a bowl of oatmeal this morning. still hungry. i miss my vacation starbucks runs.

so, let's see...drinking tally for march: drank on the 8th, 9th, & 10th and then resumed on the 17th, 18th, 19th, 21st and 22nd. 8 days. roughly 1/3 of the month, after swearing that he was done with it.

i have no reason to believe he won't drink tonight or tomorrow night and so on. honestly i think he'll stop when he's dead. do i want to hang around that long? it would be easier if i didn't love him, i suppose.

he loses his license on the 31st, which is a little over a week, and he has yet to make arrangements for getting to and from work. in a perfect world, his lack of license would mean his inability to get any liquor. too bad the service station across the street from his office opened up a package store about 4 years ago.

back again, no real improvement - 2011-06-02
growing - 2010-05-08
does sharing really mean caring - 2010-04-20
don't want to think about it now - 2010-04-13
trying to figure it out - 2010-04-12