not much time to write. gotta get some sleep, because tomorrow i have a 6-7 hour drive, taking him to rehab and returning home again.

so tonight he actually had the nerve to ask me to make love.

this was after the hell i've been going through, that culminated with his court date today...he spent much of the day trying to comfort me.

sorry, he's the reason i need comfort and he can't comfort me right now. he's the last person to be even attempting to do so.

when i told him no, he asked if he could get a rain check for tomorrow, before we leave for the center. he actually said it would be good for him.

are you you fucking serious? good for him? what about good for me? the last thing i need to do is submit to sex with him and the have to drive him to his treatment center and turn around an drive back alone, in good friday traffic.

no.

just fucking no.

not happening.

he has two good hands, if he's worried about 'back up' then he can take care of himself.

i can't believe he had the nerve to ask me that, after the day i had.

then again, i guess i can't, because with the alcohol it's all about him. it makes him selfish.

but seriously?

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