"fool me once, shame on you
fool me twice, shame on me."

fool me a thousand times? not so much anymore.

tonight he went to his first aa meeting in almost 4 years.

it ended pretty much as i had thought it might. he came home drunk.

i guess after he left the meeting he made a bee-line for the nearest abc store? and he managed to down an entire bottle before he got home.

i am hoping he didn't drink until after the meeting. he has, in the past, had several drinks before a meeting and attended them drunk, which won him no friends.

he brought home a white chip tonight, which is really bull-shit, since i guess he walked into the abc store with his white chip in his pocket.

tomorrow he is supposedly going to attend a lunch time meeting...let's hope he doesn't drink right after that meeting too, or his ass hole of a brother will figure out that he's drinking again [dripping sarcasm here]

he's been sober 2 days so far, this month. it's a short month, i hope he can pull together more days.

but i doubt it.

i've had a crushing headache all day. tension? migraine? both? dunno. just feel like shit.

too shitty and tired to be entertainingly or pathetically surly in this entry.

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don't want to think about it now - 2010-04-13
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